Pains and Aches

I'm struggling with strong pains in the legs, the arms, and the face these days. I sometimes have to take painkillers so that I can walk. ...

A Reason to Live

I can't find a reason to live. I feel that I'm useless and worthless to live. If I were not here, my husband could marry a younger healt...

A Prayer

I want to cry, but my tears don't come out. I want to scream, but words don't come out. I try to do something that is helpful to my husb...

So devestated...

I'm so devastated... Due to my menstrual disorder and menostaxis, I visited a gynecologist today. Before the visit, I actually wanted ad...

Sometimes...

People usually say, "Never put off till tomorrow what you can do today." But for those who suffer from bipolar disorder, the proverb do...

Blue Monday

For those who work, Mondays must be blue... Mondays are blue for the most of time for me as well, though I don't have a job. I feel sic...

http://eriwithbp2.blogspot.com/2012/03/i-washed-bed-linens-so-i-was-expecting.html

I washed bed linens, so I was expecting a good sleep tonight. But it doesn't seem that will happen so easily. Now my clock says th...

Don't know what to do...

My husband comes home with Death. That's just a metaphor. I don't see anything like Death or Devil for real. I don't see any delusion. I...

a jewel

Someone said, "Difficulties make you a jewel." I first thought that's a beautiful saying. However... There are too many problems going on...

It's been a long time

It's been a long time since Iwrote a blog last time. I never use English these days, so my English has been detereolating so badly that I c...

New Year Resolution for 2009

My first and foremost resolution for 2009 is to get better and go back to work as soon as possible. The other is to meet my friends more of...

http://eriwithbp2.blogspot.com/2008/12/yesterday-we-my-parents-my-husband-and.html

Yesterday, we (my parents, my husband and I) visited my sister in law and niece at the hospital. My husband drove his new car to the hospit...

My Niece Was Born

My niece was born on 22nd. And I’m supposed to be happy about it, but I wasn’t. She’s the daughter of my brother (who’s two years my junior...

volunteer work

As my friend had advised me, I've found two volunteer works. One is to translate very easy English to Japanese at a NGO office, and the oth...

Searching for Volunteer Work

As my language exchange partner has advised me, I've started to look for a volunteer work. My language exchange partner thought that it migh...

Getting Ready for Going Back to Work

I woke up at 7:10 this morning thinking that I should try to wake up early in order to go back to work. I took three years off from work and...

Bipolar II Disorder

The disorder I suffer from is characterized by repeated mild manic episodes and major depressive episodes. Bipolar II disorder ( BPII ) is o...